I was always a little in awe
of Great-aunt Stephina Roos. Indeed, as children we were all frankly terrified
of her. The fact that she did not live with the family, preferring her tiny
cottage and solitude to the comfortable but rather noisy household where we were
brought up-added to the respectful fear in which she was held.
We used to take it in turn to carry small delicacies which my mother had made
down from the big house to the little cottage where Aunt Stephia and an old
colored maid spent their days. Old Tnate Sanna would open the door to the rather
frightened little messenger and would usher him-or her - into the dark
voor-kamer, where the shutters were always closed to keep out the heat and the
flies. There we would wait, in trembling but not altogether unpleasant.
She was a tiny little woman to inspire so much veneration. She was always
dressed in black, and her dark clothes melted into the shadows of the voor-kamer
and made her look smaller than ever. But you felt. The moment she entered. That
something vital and strong and somehow indestructible had come in with her,
although she moved slowly, and her voice was sweet and soft.
She never embraced us. She would greet us and take out hot little hands in
her own beautiful cool one, with blue veins standing out on the back of it, as
though the white skin were almost too delicate to contain them.
Tante Sanna would bring in dishes of sweet, sweet, sticky candy, or a great
bowl of grapes or peaches, and Great-aunt Stephina would converse gravely about
happenings on the farm, and, more rarely, of the outer world.
When we had finished our sweetmeats or fruit she would accompany us to the
stoep, bidding us thank our mother for her gift and sending quaint,
old-fashioned messages to her and the Father. Then she would turn and enter the
house, closing the door behind, so that it became once more a place of mystery.
As I grew older I found, rather to my surprise, that I had become genuinely
fond of my aloof old great-aunt. But to this day I do not know what strange
impulse made me take George to see her and to tell her, before I had confided in
another living soul, of our engagement. To my astonishment, she was delighted.
"An Englishman,"she exclaimed."But that is splendid, splendid. And you,"she
turned to George,"you are making your home in this country? You do not intend to
return to England just yet?"
She seemed relieved when she heard that George had bought a farm near our own
farm and intended to settle in South Africa. She became quite animated, and
chattered away to him.
After that I would often slip away to the little cottage by the mealie lands.
Once she was somewhat disappointed on hearing that we had decided to wait for
two years before getting married, but when she learned that my father and mother
were both pleased with the match she seemed reassured.
Still, she often appeared anxious about my love affair, and would ask
questions that seemed to me strange, almost as though she feared that something
would happen to destroy my romance. But I was quite unprepared for her outburst
when I mentioned that George thought of paying a lightning visit to England
before we were married." He must not do it,"she cried."Ina, you must not let him
go. Promise me you will prevent him." she was trembling all over. I did what I
could to console her, but she looked so tired and pale that I persuaded her to
go to her room and rest, promising to return the next day.